The post of gigantic, epic fail

[astoryandasong]

Thank you, klgrem, for the card!


So here's the deal: I am applying for a £10,000 grant for postgrad research. I am, at this precise moment in time, supposed to be writing my grant proposal.  Yet here I am!
Of course, thinking about failing at this makes me think about how I fail at other stuff like losing weight and having relationships. Oh and finishing things. Just how much I fail in general, actually. I'm not usually that emo about this stuff, but home has been eh, tense, I can't find a permanent job and I cannot write this fucking proposal. Today is just one of those days when running away with the foreign legion looks attractive. You know those days when you're all 'I have an honours degree! I'm smart and not ugly and pretty funny! Why am I still unemployed and single? Why is every girl I date crazy?' questions for the ages, man. It's just so depressing when you realise that in order to be employed you may actually have to take your hard-earned degree off of your CV.

But eh. I have Panic tickets for the Glasgow gig (any other fangirls going?) and I have my health (HAHA I am Sybil Ramkin without dragons, natch).

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Thanks for the hugs, I don't feel as emo as I did when I wrote this post, thank god.

Ooo, Puddle of Mudd, haven't heard anything about them in ages, and I am ssooooo jealous of you getting to see HCT.

[kirana-44.livejournal.com]

They just had new album come out in like October I think. It's good. I'm really excited about getting to see them. I have no money right now and really shouldn't be going to see HCT, but I'm doing it anyway, and I'm going to drive my Honda Civic which is named Jazz Spencer Smith.